A woman with a deep hurt and a disgraceful past, is coming out now for help after several years of much turbulence.
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The woman shared her story showing just how much loathes her past affair with her own brother and how it may actually be responsible for her present predicament.
Below is what shared.
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I really need to share my burden with someone because I am fast running out of my senses. I am losing my mind. my case is exceptional in which I'm ashamed to discuss, but I've to share if you hide my identity.
I was raped by my own brother at age of 12. He was 15 by then but we hid it from our parents. I can't remember vividly the number of times we had s*x together after the rape but it became quite a regular occurrence and honestly, as naive as I was I knew what we were doing was wrong but since he was the only companion and friend I have, we went on and it got to a point where we used to have s*x 3 to 4 times a day and I couldnt stop him because at a point I actually started longing for it after he taught me about orgasms.
Once our parents leave the house, he would suck and suck me before having s*x and it became an experience I came to long for so much so that when we gained admission in different schools, life without him became difficult.
It wasnt until my 3rd year that I was able to get over him and entered my first real relationship. It was then that I started feeling bad about my past and the role my brother played in it but I kept it to myself and we never discussed it ever again. We just moved on like it never happened though it gets awkward sometimes when we are alone.
Few years later, precisely 2009, I got married and had a miscarriage once. Since then there has been nothing like pregnancy again and this is our 7th year in marriage. My mind has been running to and fro because I and my hubby have been certified OK medically.
My brother wedded 2 years ago and his wife just give birth to a bouncing baby boy. I dont know what is wrong with me. I am having a very strong feeling that what my brother did to me may be the cause of my situation. I am still not sure why he has gone scot free while I suffer for what he made me do.
I am confused because this incident was the last thing I'll ever discuss with my hubby. It has been my secret all my life. I hear of people who do cleansing when things like this happen but I dont know how to go about it.
Please what do this intelligent audience advise me to in this situation because I've confessed to Almighty God in my secret chamber to forgive my sins yet every month, my period will start even earlier than usual signifying that something is wrong with me spiritually.
Even though my hubby has been supportive, I want to be a mum and to make him a dad. He deserves it cos he is a very good man and I feel bad when ever I see how good he is with other children.
Please what do I do to reverse any curse that may be following me?