I Dumped Her After She Had 2 Abortions For Me. I'm Set To Marry Another Lady - Man Seeking Advice

 

Please advice me on the matter on my mind.

 

I entered a relationship very early in my life as back as when I was still in secondary school with a girl in my area, we never had s#x until when she finshed her secondary school we started having s#x, we don't stay far from each others house so is very easy for her to come over to my house when my parents are not around.

 

We had s#x countless times and what did you expect from people that had s#x every time without protection, the girl was pregnant. As at the time she was pregnant I was already in my 200level at the university and she was still looking for admission when I heard about it I told her to keep it but she told me she can't keep it that her parents will kill her so I gave her money to abort it which she did. We continued with our love affair but now very careful till I am about leaving for service, when going I told her I will surely keep myslef for her and she should also keep herself for me till I come that if I hear any rumor that she is dating somebody else I will just cut off the relationship so I left. After a year of service in the far east I got a job and she can't come to my side due to distance I later came home after 1and half year, as I saw her, I observed somebody else has touch her. Her breast was full of milk I ask her what happen she said nothing, I later found out that she was pregnant for another guy when I was not around and she aborted it so the milk is still in her breast I was mad within me she begged and I forgave her.

 

Note all through my stay during service year I never touch any lady I kept my self for her as the promise I made with her. I stayed like 2 months at home before going back to my base.

 

As I left she told me she was pregnant for me again I was shocked but told her am not ready to father a child now that she should abort it, she aborted it and we continue our relationship but I only come home once in a year.

 

My mind was not pure with her again so I now start giving other girl attention due to what has happen before, I now met this new girl, we attend the same Catholic, we started has friend not until I begin to pick interest in this new girl, I asked her out and she agree which make me to forget this my old babe totally, the old babe complain and I told her I am sorry I can't continue with her again that my mind is not with her again, she begged but I told her parents I am not interested again.

 

My wedding with this my new babe will come up August but my conscience do judge me that i don't treat that old girl well by leaving her. pls help, what can I do?