I Want to Kill Myself, I Am 24 and Handsome But My P*nis Won't Ever Get Hard!

 

Dear readers,

 

While growing up I felt so different and did things differently. Naturally I am an introvert, my class mates in secondary school would say I have a unique way of doing things. I felt so cool about myself especially the ability to control how I feel generally. I am very handsome and the kind of guy girls easily throw themselves at, again I felt my ability to resist certain temptations was because I had self control. 

 

Growing up in a Christian home there are things we don’t ask mom and dad, I would look at little brother and notice I had a smaller scrotum but I didn’t feel something was wrong with me.

 

All these years I never understood I had a real problem. I am all grown now but I can’t keep a relationship!! My siblings will always crack a joke about how unlucky I was with finding a good date. 

 

First time I got a girlfriend, very loving and caring young girl. We started off for 2-years without s*x. It wasn’t a problem for me I don’t know what s*x feels like but it was to her and she wanted it badly I knew I would loose her if I don’t and she began to wonder if I was a man.

 

First time we tried s*x I couldn’t get erected, I felt it was anxiety and she was supportive. Second and third was worse but we kept trying. She had to tell me to see a doctor fast because I am not okay. S*x ended up being an issue and we broke up.

 

I dated two other girls and the last girl said it to my face “YOU ARE IMPOTENT!" that was when it occurred to me this is serious. I went to see a urologist and after the blood test it was confirmed I had low testosterone below normal. I couldn’t believe I had a problem like this until I did a sperm analysis. I had oligospermia!! 95% abnormality.

 

Further test showed I had Hypogondasim; it’s yet unknown if it’s secondary or primary Hypogondasim. I knew I had gone down that road where you look back and ask life What did I do to deserve this? How do I convince a girl to even accept to marry me? Is their really a God? Why am I a man if God won’t give me what I need to become a man. Every solution I have heard so far is impractical, expensive or ridiculous.

 

Imagine injecting testosterone for 6 months before you can make love to your wife? Or injecting my p*nis to stay up before s*x? Alpha blockers like viagra has no effect on me at all. Apart from sexual performance science is yet to understand male fertility and a lot of things will be tried on me, this could take years!!! If it’s so simple as doctors will easily say, why are there cases men without a child and some never have a child and just adopt. Why are there so many drugs and injections if one thing works. I am at the bridge of taking my life, I see no point making all these money and sit down in an empty house sad and lonely.

 

-Over worried man wrote via Yo Answers.